Blog-e-VENTory

I am tired, but I can't sleep.

Most times when I feel down, all I want to do is eat.

I wonder where this came from, this "addiction" to using food to cope with all the negative feelings I have.

All I know is that tonight I am going to go to bed,

and I am not going to eat.

As much as I want to go upstairs and grab a huge bowl of the sugariest cereal I can find,

and as much as my second choice would be to lay out here on the couch, and like I have done for years, watch a movie until I fall asleep... I am not going to.

Because for once in my life I am truly determined about something.

Determined about taking steps forward, not so many backwards.
Determined about somehow taking control of myself.

So tonight I am going to go back to bed

and coach myself to sleep.
I may have taken a few steps backwards this week, but I can be proud of myself for taking a step forward tonight.

Remember, the time for change is always, always, always right now.

love you all.